As I’ve tried to grow and improve myself, despite my weaknesses, I’ve come to the realization that resistance is the only true way I grow.
So in the midst of a recurring episode, how do I begin to wrest back control: make the hardest thing required to be done on any day something I do for me. I don’t do the hardest thing each day because someone else wants me to. I do it because I want to do it.
Therefore, I switch from being the victim to the actor. I go from having no control to being in control.
Other things may happen to me, but I know that they will not be harder than the thing I did for myelf.
Today, getting out of bed kinda sucked. But I did a bunch of low-effort, but necessary things prior to doing that. But that can’t be the hardest thing I do today. Work is going to be a bit of a bummer. So I’ve got to do something before work that will be challenging and my choice.