The biggest problem with this house remodel is the amount of money I’ve chosen to borrow in order to do it.
I am swamped by debt–and it’s my fault–and I’m the only one who can pay it back.
And I can’t really pay it back until the remodel is done.
And the house is sold.
So when people recommend–and many have–taking a week off, my only response is “I can’t afford to.”
They think I’m being melodramatic and referring to my inner need to just get it done.
But it’s more than that.
It really is about the money. I actually can’t afford to take the time off.
So when I blow my nose last night and it looks like fermented Nickelodeon slime, I get pretty concerned.
Concerned that I will have to take time off. Worried that the finishing timeline will slip.
Worried that I won’t be able to keep up with payments.
Worried that I’m working myself and my wife too hard.
Worried that she’ll start to crack, and then we’ll all be in trouble.