Not every day is a fight

It used to be that every day was a fight: every day was a struggle to get up and get going. I’m glad that’s not true any more.

It’s nice to be able to roll out of bed and know there is work to be done and that work is enjoyable.

Some days are still sucky. There’s usually a trigger that sets it off–something related to what triggered me before: things I expected and don’t have, recognition that those things are still affect me, even though I’m consciously past them.

So the subconscious can still bring things up, and then it’s my joy to deal with it consciously and move past it. Taking control of the conscious thoughts and accepting they are there, but choosing to not dwell on them.

That takes control. It takes effort. And it almost always happens on days I’d rather not split my brainpower because I know my main focuses will take everything I have.

Lucky me.

About the author: Lee J

Lee J Hinkle spends his days writing video game code. It was never a job he expected to have. Check out Rogue Invader online. Any search will send you to the right spot. Unless the language is foreign. Then maybe 50% will be right.

He tries to be a devout member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and hopes his Father recognizes his efforts.